lots of feelings.

everything is just so new. I even don't know what's with this condition after all. I don't know EVERYTHING about this. I can't really explain what's with this all about. I'm not really sure but I won't decide or either assure myself for something. I'll just continue to give on my best with my dreams. I don't want to think about this and keep being unsure. there are no time for this. you haven't do your best at all. what I can do is to lock all of this unsureness, anxiousness and another subtle things deep inside the box. I will NOT expect for anything and keep on going with what I believe on. if the exact time comes, Allah knows everything. If I'm reaally going then I'll go on. If I'm staying here then I'll keep on doing my best. this is the first number of priority in your life li. and that feelings inside the box, just let that all of them wait patiently inside the lock. if the right time comes it'll surely come. don't expect for something crazy like butterfly flatters and reassure for something you even don't know exactly what. waiting is the right choice, even when this feelings doesn't expect anything, Allah will keep giving His best for any of us. everything is gonna be okay, just don't let your guard go down and keep on struggling to be better for the sake of yourself. please, just don't give up, 

be okay. please.